× Forever Longing, Forever Loathing ×
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| Monday, January 5th, 2009 |
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it never ceases to amaze me that so much shit runs through my fucking head. im tired of thinking about people that really dont mean shit in life and for that matter are shit in life. honestly and as sad as it to me i put faith in so many people who will never amount to shit. hahaha why? and to one person who will never see this what is it that makes me cast caution to the wind and believe in people like you...maybe cause you were beautiful but i cant stop you from constantly running through my mind....i cant stop loving you......its fucking killing me at this point. i tell myself how shitty you really were...and it doesnt matter...it didnt matter...i loved you anyway..none of your flaws mattered to me..because i wanted to believe in you...i wanted you to always be the only person i could love despite anything................i did love you after so much. i still love you and how long has it been since you told me the same.................................... |
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| Sunday, December 28th, 2008 |
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| Friday, December 26th, 2008 |
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well i wanted it...but looking at it now...bad fucking idea. it appears that at one time or another i not only rebel against others ideals philosophies and rules but my own as well.... and know i have to deal with whatever comes my way....fuck |
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| Tuesday, December 23rd, 2008 |
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so. in retrospect it appears i was pretty. optimistic. ha which leads to why ill always be cynical. optimism is a great excuse to be let down but not a good reason to live. optimism means to have high standards of happiness which often falls short. cynicism on the other hand leads one to think negatively but in the end when something does go correctly or better than doesnt that give one a better reason to be excited? maybe maybe not. i drank some fucking cunts "dip spit" nasty ho. i think that its disgusting when women chew....and if she didnt maybe...shed be a little attractive but all in all that shit ruins it...bleh ahhh heres a song. We call the heartland not very smartland, IQ's are very low but threat levels are high They got a mandate, they don't want man-dates, they got so many hates and people to despise In the dust bowl, cerebral black hole, the average weight is well over 200 pounds I hate to generalize, but have you seen the thighs, most haven't seen their genitalia in a while Maybe that's why they're so pissed at us They're all jealous we're having better sex Queers, transgends, and lesbians, vegans and vegetarians All you brownish red and yellow ones come out and join us on the coast No longer svelte, they gotta punch new holes in the Bible belt They've blown out the fire under the melting pot, the red blood of America is starting to clot No compromise, no sight thru others' eyes, they're just flies spreading pieces of shit You gotta emigrate, stop living in hate, what makes this country great is dwelling on either side They don't want visitors in Jesusland They want life bland and canned in the fatherland We want people with college degrees, drug use experience and STD's People with open-minded philosophies, come hug California trees Cultural revolution now, neo-conservatives run outta town We're gonna burn Orange County down, And then we're off to Riverside, Bakersfield and Fresno too, then we're comin' after you The fear stricken, born again Christian, they got a vision a homogenized state Texas textbooks, Bibles, and prayer books, They want them memorized, but don't want you to think They don't want visitors in Jesusland They want life bland and canned in the fatherland Punk Rockers and emo kids, people doin' things the church forbids Buddhists, agnostics, and atheists we're moving out of jesusland Art students and thespians, (excluding country) all the musicians We want all hookers and comedians, nihilists are welcome too No longer svelte, they gotta punch new holes in the Bible belt |
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× Forever Longing, Forever Loathing ×
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